I sit in front of my computer every day for the past four or five. I contemplate the screen. I muse over words on a page. In a flash of inspiration, I write a paragraph, my fingers clicking away quickly to try and keep up with my jumbled thoughts. And then, inevitably, I read over what I have just composed, and erase it.
A million thoughts flit through my head. What are my take-aways, my reflections from 2012? What does 2013 have in store? What are my resolutions as I look ahead at the blank canvas that is 2013. How do I set realistic, reachable goals for myself, for my family?
And then I think about this blog. What has it been? What do I want it to become? For me, the new year is an opportunity to re-examine, to reflect, to take stock. In thinking about my blog, I find myself frustrated by my lack of answers. What is my purpose for this blog? What don’t I want? What do I want?
I don’t want to be just another blog that people who know me read because they feel like they should, since I’m their friend. I don’t want to be a “this is what I did today” blog, with some pictures of my kids. I don’t want to be meaningless, to write just to fill space, to be redundant, to bore.
I want to be meaningful. I want my words, my life, to resonate with other people. I want to inform, to challenge people’s perceptions of Down syndrome, and to give others a glimpse of what our life looks like, as we seek to create an epic story. Ultimately, however, I don’t want to just share information about our life. I desire to connect with others on their journey in some significant way. To encourage, to give hope, to be open, real, and vulnerable.
So, join me if you will, as I try to figure out where I go from here…