Well, we finally got the glasses! And let’s be honest, I think Jake looks pretty darn cute in them. Wouldn’t you agree??!! If he wasn’t a spitting image of his dad before, he certainly is now! The only thing is, we have not put his “ears” (his hearing band) on since we got the glasses. I just feel overwhelmed and I want him to be okay with one thing before I bombard him with both things. So these days, we either choose seeing or hearing! (although, as a side note, I feel like he is still hearing pretty well, even without his band on).
We’ve had a busy few days, and have some cute pics to show for it! Between celebrating my husband’s birthday, going to the Calgary Stampede for Jake’s first Stampede experience, having 2 bonfires in 3 days, and hitting up the water park in our community a couple of times, Jake has had a great week! Here are some pics to show how much fun he’s been having…
The countdown is on! Only 9 more days until Baby Slater #2 shows up! Yep, I am scheduled for a c-section in 9 days, so unless he decides to come early, I only have nine more precious days to spend with Jake before life as we know it is going to change drastically.
If I were to share my honest and unfiltered thoughts and emotions, this is what I would say: I am really excited to add another little one to our family! But I am also having doubts about my ability to do the most I can for Jake with a new little one. I desperately want to provide Jake with the most opportunities possible, with the best attention that I can, and I want to give him every possible avenue for success, whatever that looks like.
Right now I spend a lot of one-on-one time with him, playing, doing therapy (through play), trying to teach him about his world. And I am scared. Scared that I won’t have the time to devote to him, and that he will not flourish as a result. Scared that my best will not be enough. Scared that I will always look back and think “I should have done more”.
I know in my head that it is not all about me. I know in my head that Jake is going to be just fine. I know in my head that I have family and friends who love my child to death, and who will do everything in their power to help me raise him well. I know in my head that it takes a village to raise a child. I just need to allow that knowledge to permeate my heart. To allow that knowledge to empower me to do what I can, and to know that there are others who will be there (and already are) to fill in where I am weak.
So…see you on the flip side:)