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And we are 1…!!

21 May
And we are 1…!!

Last weekend we had Jake’s 1st birthday party!  Here are a few pics…

Jake and Daddy…waiting for people to come!

Jake chillin’ with his auntie!

Singing Happy Birthday!

I thought for this post, I would just insert a quote out of my journal.  I wrote this journal entry on May 15, 2012, Jake’s actual birthday.  It is a little raw in parts, so please excuse the emotion, but I thought it summed up my feelings on this past year pretty well…

“I remember one year ago, thinking that life as I knew it was basically over.  Grieving the loss of something that I thought I had.  Questioning what life would look like; if I would ever smile or laugh again, and if I would ever delight in my child in the way that I knew he deserved.  I know, those are horrid, terrible thoughts, and I wish with all my heart that I had never thought them.  But I did, and I can’t take them back or pretend they didn’t exist.  The day after Jake was born, when they told me that they were testing him for Down syndrome, I honestly thought I wasn’t going to make it through to the other side.  I could not stop crying hysterically.  I could not see a way out.  I felt trapped, like a caged animal, inside emotions that I didn’t want to have, but could not stop myself from feeling.

And today?  Today I feel joy.  I can hardly wait for my baby boy to wake up from his nap, so that I can hug him, and kiss him, and tell him how much I love him, and how proud I am to be his mama.  I have gained a new perspective on life (and am continuing to do so).  I have made some pretty awesome relationships with other moms who are traveling the same road as I am.  Am I apprehensive at times about what the future holds?  Of course.  But so are parents of typical children.  I think that’s part of what makes us human.  Do I still cry?  Yes.  Do I still struggle?  Yes.  But if someone had told me at the beginning that I would be this content, this fulfilled, and this happy to have my precious little guy, just the way he is, I don’t think I would have believed it possible.  And that is a testament to Jake.  What a great little kid!”  – Journal, May 15, 2012 –

The evolution of cake-eating…step 1!

The evolution of cake-eating…step 2!

The evolution of cake-eating…step 3!! I think he liked it!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAKE!!  We love you so much.

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4 responses to “And we are 1…!!

  1. Lois Haines

    May 21, 2012 at 12:44 pm

    Karen I dont think I could love you more if you were my own daughter. I have known you since you were born and have felt a close connection to you ever since. I am so happy for you and Curtis and cannot put into words as to how I feel about your BEAUTIFUL little boy and the 3 of you as a family. I have followed your blogs since long before you were married and never found anything negative in your life. Your life just magnifys Christ in everything you do and say and noone could say anything better that that about you,. I love you all. Love Aunt Lois.

     
  2. Jenny

    May 21, 2012 at 1:33 pm

    Happy Birthday Jake 🙂

     
  3. Catherine

    May 22, 2012 at 11:46 pm

    Thank you for taking the time to share your epic journey with all of us. Even across the miles, I am so glad that I get witness the evolution of your little family, and Mr. Jake growing up. The cake pictures (especially step #3) are priceless. With lots and lots of love to you all… Catherine (mas conocida como Caty)

     
  4. Laura

    May 30, 2012 at 12:32 pm

    Happy, happy birthday Jake!

     

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