Ask me what’s new. Go on, ask me!

I mean, after all, it has been an incredibly long time since I’ve written anything, since I’ve expressed any thoughts, emotions, feelings, or ideas through the medium of the written word. And as I lie here on my bed, contemplating what to write about, thinking about “what’s new”, one word comes to mind:


Nothing is new. Yet so many things are new.

On the one hand, life goes on! Routines are followed, timelines evolve, day-to-day schedules occur. At the end of each day, it does not seem as though there is much to report. Life is good! Family is amazing, my kids are growing and thriving, we are having fun together (and sometimes we are at each others’ throats!), and not much is new.

On the other hand, however, so much has changed since the end of October (which those of you who actually read this consistently will know that the last time I updated my blog was at the end of October). Milestones are being met for all three of my kiddos. Jake has made incredible strides in many areas, especially in the area of communication. I have entered into the realm of “Etsy”, unlocking another creative side of myself by doing some sewing. (“321Joy“).

In the spirit of brevity, I will just say this: it’s good to be back!
I have missed writing, expressing myself in this form, and allowing myself the opportunity to unpack thoughts, ideas, and opinions. I have some topics that have been rattling around in my brain for a while now, which I will share in the coming days and weeks. But for now, thanks for having me back!

I’ll leave you with the promise of more, and a few cute pics of my kiddos from our Christmas decorating day (which for those of you who know me, was way back in mid-November!). Enjoy!


Cole climbed right into the Christmas tree box…


…and then so did all our kids! (okay, Noah had some help..!)


This snow globe plays Christmas songs and shoots out “snow” on top of Santa and his reindeer. Very. Loudly. And my kids adore it!


Noah just tried to eat them the whole time!


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Posted by on December 18, 2014 in Uncategorized


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The 3 Little Minions…

So, 29 isn’t bad, right?
29 days. I made it 29 days out of the 31 day challenge.
This blogging challenge is one of the highlights of the blogging year for me. It gives me a chance to reflect, write on a more consistent basis, and hopefully spread some awareness and acceptance. Thanks to those of you who journeyed through the past month with me:)

And now, may I present to you, the 3 Little Minions!


I won’t say a ton about Halloween, except for this…we had a GREAT time!
I was so incredibly proud of Jake. He stayed with us. He didn’t try and run away. He walked on the sidewalk (as opposed to running on the road). He climbed up and down every person’s front stairs by himself. He said “eeeeee” for “trick or treat” and then always said “thank you” for the candy. He was priceless…all three of my kiddos were.
This was the first year that Cole really understood what was happening too. The very first candy that got dropped into Cole’s bag was like a light bulb moment for him. He actually squealed out loud, yelled “candy!!” and then after every house, proceeded to exclaim “more candy, daddy!!” It was adorable.

At the end of the night, Curtis and I both turned to each other and exclaimed “that was fun!”, which to be honest, was sort of a new feeling for us, as we usually feel like our experiences are fun but with a good mix of stress and being on high alert added in.

All in all, a great night was had by all:)












Posted by on November 1, 2014 in Uncategorized


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[31 for 21] ~ Throwback Thursday Part 2…


Today’s word is happiness.

First of all, did anyone miss me yesterday??!!
I fell off the wagon. I landed hard. I tried to write a blog last night but I actually just stared at my computer for about 45 seconds, and then promptly fell asleep. So…yeah, it didn’t happen yesterday!

Today is Thursday. I have been meaning to post these pics every Thursday this month for Throwback Thursday, and then keep forgetting. So today, here they are. Just a bunch of pictures of a great summer day had by all. It has become a tradition in our family that my mom takes all her grandsons out for a day at the Calgary Corn Maze. The place rocks. The corn maze is great, but honestly it’s all the other stuff that really sells the place for my kids. From a petting zoo, to mini-golf, to a playground, to giant trampolines, slides, and so much more, our kids had an amazing time. The pictures speak for themselves:)













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Posted by on October 30, 2014 in Uncategorized


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[31 for 21] ~ The Day of Total Randomness…


Today’s word is happiness.

And randomness. There is no rhyme or reason as to why I am posting this smattering of things. Enjoy:)


Selfie with my boys on a beautiful fall day:)


Hanging out at the park. This is how Cole came down the slide…


…And this is how Jake came down the slide!!


I just think this picture is adorable. And also the fact that he is trying to sit up while strapped into the chair is pretty funny.


Handsome boy. (and fat!!)


We got Noah dedicated in church last Sunday. My brother-in-law, Dave, was praying for him. I love this pic because it shows what was really happening…all the adults were trying to pay attention, Jake was talking to himself, and Noah was desperately trying to rip the mic out of Dave’s hand!

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Posted by on October 28, 2014 in Uncategorized


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[31 for 21] ~ They Looked At Me Like I Was Crazy…


Today’s word is hope.

Not the kind of feel-good hope that has been characteristic of the last few posts. Hope as in the “here’s hoping…” kind of hope.

My arm hurts.
“Why does your arm hurt?” you ask.
My arm hurts because I got the flu shot today.

Now, before I go any further, let me just back up for a second. I have never been one to get the flu shot. I always refused, stating vehemently and with a certain level of pride that I had never gotten the flu shot, and I had never gotten the flu. It was not something that was ever on my radar.

Enter Jake.
Jake is not medically fragile by any means. He is, however, susceptible to more than the typical kid. And when he does get sick, he is prone to get sicker than many other children, and have a harder time recovering. Much of this is due to having extremely small airways and passageways, which when sick get even smaller and let even less air and oxygen into his body. Because of Jake, I have changed my tune on getting the flu shot, desiring to do anything possible to help keep him healthy through the winter months.

Last year I had every intention of getting the flu shot for me and my kiddos. One thing led to another, however, and laziness and apathy took over. Fall was a busy season. Then the Christmas season was upon us (for those of you who may not know, I start celebrating the Christmas season extremely early, so it was a long season to enjoy!). With the termination of Christmas came New Years. And then it happened. Jake got sick. Then he got sicker. And sicker. Long story short, we ended up being admitted to the hospital for almost a week with pneumonia, coming home on oxygen, and being admitted again a few weeks later. By the time he was well enough to get the flu shot administered to him, the entire province of Alberta had run out.

Last year was awful, and I have no desire to relive that again this year. So when the flu shots came out early last week, I was on the phone, finding out when and where the clinics were being held. And today was the day. I picked Jake up from school, drove over to the clinic, and took all three of my children through the process of getting their flu shots.

And people were looking at me like I was crazy.

Granted, my children were not on their best behavior. It was almost nap time, and they were tired and hungry. Noah and Jake were in the stroller, and Cole was walking beside me. Jake, however, kept squirming out from under the bar, and trying to escape. Every time I grabbed him, he would whine and flop himself on the floor. Cole was running around like a crazy person, pushing all the barriers, chairs, and garbage cans he could find, and being utterly and outright defiant. Noah was great until he got his shot, but then he started crying and wouldn’t stop. Jake had a meltdown because I wouldn’t let him play on my phone, and then when I took it away from Cole to give to Jake, it was Cole’s turn for a meltdown. Like, a bloodcurdling, screaming fit, which if you were an innocent bystander you would have thought was because the nurse was giving him the vaccine, but in reality was because I took away the phone.

We had to stay for 15 minutes after the vaccine was administered, and I swear it was the longest 15 minutes of my life. Jake and Cole took turns in the stroller, and whoever was in the stroller got the phone. I had to entertain the other one, attempting tickling, singing songs, chasing them around the room, and getting them to throw random objects in the garbage for me. And I saw it. I saw the stares. I saw the whispers. I saw the shy little smiles when I looked at those around me. They were all thinking it…that woman is crazy!

And maybe I am crazy for attempting to take my 3 year old with Down syndrome, 2 year old, and 7 month old for flu shots. But here’s hoping that it works, and we don’t end up in the hospital as much as we were last year.

And if there is any possibility of hoping for health this winter, then I say, “bring on the crazy”!!

*I did not take any pictures during the ordeal today, as I was trying to keep my sanity and to not lose my children! So instead, here are just a couple cute pictures of my kids, being crazy, taking selfies when I didn’t know they had my phone!*






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Posted by on October 27, 2014 in Uncategorized


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[31 for 21] ~ Stories of Hope, Part 2…


Today’s word is hope.

A couple of weeks ago I posted about hope, linking to a video about Tim, an incredible man with Down syndrome who owns his own restaurant, called “Tim’s Place“. Today I want to share another story of hope, coming out of our very own city. The Media Release about Sensei Natalie Olson explains the honor that she has of being able to go to Germany and compete in Karate.

What isn’t explained in the Media Release below, however, is a little more detail about Sensei Natalie Olson. Here it is, word for word from an email that was sent by Natalie’s parents to the Executive Director of PREP, the organization where Jake attends preschool (Natalie is a graduate of the PREP program, and this email was meant to be read and shared by many!):

“Her (Natalie) karate sensei challenged her to complete her Black Belt. We, her parents, her strongest supporters, didn’t think she could do it. But her senseis (Heather Fidyk and her husband Darren) did believe in her. Last May, we travelled to Edson, Alberta where she was presented along with 21 other contenders to be tested. She was one of the successful 12 who passed. Her tester said it was one of the most enjoyable gradings he’s ever done. This from someone who rarely smiles and never gives compliments! She became the first person with Down syndrome in Canada to achieve this rank in Wado Kai karate.”

Again I say it: so much hope. So much potential. So much to look forward to.

Go Natalie Go!!

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Posted by on October 27, 2014 in Uncategorized


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[31 for 21] ~ Why Don’t I Forget?…


Today’s word is heartache.

My question is this: why don’t I forget?
I have read so many blog posts lately in which the authors refer to the fact that their lives are typical and ordinary, so much so that they often forget that their little one has a diagnosis of Down syndrome. Perhaps in the past I have even been the author of a similar post, or subscribed to a similar vein of thought. These days, however, I absolutely do not feel that way. Which begs the question, why don’t I forget?

Don’t get me wrong. I love Jake so dearly. I cherish him, I admire him for the amazing little person that he is. I parent him similarly to my other children, and when I look at him, I don’t see his diagnosis, I see Jake. Period. Full stop.

But still…

I don’t see him through the lens of his diagnosis. I also don’t forget that he has one however.
Maybe it’s just because Cole is catching up to Jake, and beginning to surpass him in many ways. Maybe because of this I am more aware of the things that are different between them. Maybe I am just sleep deprived and it is beginning to catch up to me and taint my perception. In this stage of Jake’s development, however, I feel that the diagnosis of Down syndrome truly does color everything. Down syndrome is never far from my mind. I don’t forget.

And I am tired. Not physically, although I am tired physically as well. I’m tired emotionally. I’m tired psychologically. I am just tired.
Today I had a “chronic grief” moment ~ I went into the kitchen to pour myself another cup of coffee, and Jake took the opportunity to dump his food all over the floor. Again. For the zillionth time. And I cried. I went into my room, lay my head down on my pillow in defeat, and let the tears flow.

I wasn’t crying for the spilled food. That was just the proverbial icing on the cake. I was crying because I’m tired. I was crying because this is sometimes hard. I was crying because I feel I’m failing him. I was crying because there are so many issues, health-wise, behavior-wise, and other that I don’t know how to navigate very well. I was crying because in this stage of life, I find it hard to forget.

Thank goodness Jake is not defined by what I can’t forget, but by so much more:)







Posted by on October 25, 2014 in Uncategorized


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